Phunny blog?!?

Well.. Negative0 gave me this link today about some web-log bla bla. It’s more of a joke made to piss folks that have blogs etc. I think it’s a funny thing to do.. tho not very realistic. Most of the people that tend to write about their everyday life, including myself, have no other purpose other than sharing their opinions about life and co.. no matter how fucked up those are. It’s a matter of sharing yourself to the world.. and keeping something of a live journal. People have always tried to be special.. no matter what. Even those that weren’t. I’m quite glad to see people posting about personal issues because it gives a glimpse of humanity to the Internet.. makes me think we are still humans.. with flaws and frailties. Another thing we earth inhabitants have is the tendency to be sad.. feel down.. being depressed.. well shit happens you know. But then again life isn’t all about that. There are things worth living for, things that make you smile and have a fuzzy feeling inside. And I am not talking about porn. NO! Like in real life there are things that are worth paying attention to and some that aren’t worth of that. Why bother talk about the useless crap? BTW Negative0, great poem :

Life sucks… I can’t take it anymore.
I wanna bleed and die. Life sucks.
Everything is dark, black and gloomy void,
There’s only shadows, pain, suffering, agony,
hurt, misery, torture, disease, emotional distress.
I miss you, my angel. I want to feel your velvet wings
I wanna love you forever and ever for infinite eternity and
I wanna touch you down there.
Quoth the raven: “Goat-sex”.

Question mark

So here I am once again. Like every other day, on my chair.. in front of my pc. Asking myself stupid questions about the world, about humans and so on. It seems there’s never an exact answer for my questions. Everytime I ask myself I get different answers. I know I am not schizofrenic, and I have no mental disease. I’m quite sure that the Einstein guy was a smart one.. when saying “everything is relative”. People change all the time. From day to day.. I know that in a 100 years I won’t be here.. it makes me sad and then I get over it, live my life as it is. Trying to improve it as I can. But after the whole fuss during the day.. I ask myself the same questions that thousand of other people have asked before. Why are we here? Why do we have to die? Why not be immortals. Where was I before I was born? Is this just another disease that atheist suffer from? Is it better for those that have a God? Is it good to live in a black light? Is it good to believe without thinking too much? What’s good and what is bad. I feel this world empty. Millions and millions of humans, and somehow we are all alone.

[ Smashing Pumpkins • For Martha ]

The reason..

Last week was so boring. Except for the weekend. Though at first I thought I was gonna meet a friend of mine before going to The Netherlands for a month and something.. well it wasn’t meant to be I suppose Anyhow, he’s gone now.. well tomorrow in the morning at least.

Saturday I wasted some 6 hours to make Doctoras a damn KoRn doll(check Issues cover). He already had another one, my own work as well.. but it was so old and dirty, though washed 3 years old doll. Sukey I might say. So been to deliver zE doll, babbled around, spent time with Simona afterwards. Nothing fancy really happened.

Sunday was so nice. Warm weather and aaah inviting you to go out and spend some quality time with your friends. And so I did. Went out with Florin. Walked through the city for some 3-4 hours. Sharing opinions, actually gossiping. It made me good, made me forget of my stupid little problems, and even solve some of them. So another week gone. Nothing big, nothing small.. life. BTW I can’t get rid of this song stuck in my play-list.. only song I’ve been listening since yesterday [ Hoobastank - The Reason ].

I’m not a perfect person
There’s many things I wish I didn’t do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I’ve found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you..

Happy birthdays

Happy birthday dear “little” brother! Well it’s my brother’s birthday, and if Kurt Cobain was still alive, it would’ve been his birthday 2. My brother and him have nothing in common, except the birthday. Hmm and tallish alure. That’s about it. Somehow I feel connected to the dead Kurt. Not because I am have superpowers or anything just for the things that he said. Don’t know if him he himself really believed everything that he said.. anyhows..He’s not my idol though when i was in the 7th, 8th and 9th grade i was all about Nirvana. Now.. well it’s not like it used to be. I remember my 1st Nirvana tape. Alexandra U. gaved me the Nevermind album. I recorded it on a tape. Listened to it over and over again. And then some more. Afterwards I got In Utero if I remember well (Auras made it). Then I got to buy the albums, receive them as gifts(wee wee Razvan). Grunge was me and I was grunge. Still think I am, just that i grew up, changed things, and moved on. I don’t know what’s with ‘em people that celebrate the day a person died, instead of the birthday. Anyhows, buttoms ups for you Kurty.. and for my brother.

Writting on the blog

Hmm.. I never paid russian literature any attention, though I knew it had some great authors. Well Simona got me into it. She gave me a book written by Aleksandr Pushkin. Told me how interesting a short story was.. “The Queen Of Spades”. Alina also read it. So in order to share or not their impressions I had to read it too. It was short, some 60 pages that I read yesterday in breaks. It was so nice.. though at the beginning boring and without any meaning. I had a bad impression about russian authors.. because every-time I imagined them writing an unlikely picture came into my head. They writting in some rat hole tavern, everything filled up with smoke, drinking vodka.. complaining about the bad weather, and disgusted of the human nature. Some misanthropes with a spark of genius. Well it seems I was so and very wrong. I will read some more of the Pushkin guy after I’ll finish reading a classic, “Tess D`Urberville” by Thomas Hardy. I think I like Pushkin more than T.H. But I’ll wait until the end of the book to say that.

I got into the whole Valentine’s thing without my volition. I received a red rose from a friend of mine. It’s not even march yet. I can’t say I didn’t like the gesture. Anyhow… it seems my hike to see LOT isn’t happening. Or it’s going to happen only if dad takes us there.. and drives us back. “Uuuu lookie.. I brought dad to see some kewl rawkers”. Fancy, what can I say. He says that it’s not safe for 3 under aged kids to go on their own to a big city like Bucharest. This is silly.. and it makes me lose my mind. Well I have to do it his way.. or no way. Overprotective parents I have

Tagg Craze

So I’ve been tagged.. Roxa did it to me. Err do this I must.. or not :-”

4 jobs I had..

• drive mum crazy (full time job)
• translator
• actor.. just for a short period of time
• time waster (no one paid me, except for the translator part..)

4 fav movies

• Forest Gump
• Memoirs of a Geisha
• The Hours
• Constantine

4 fav dishes

• Honey sandwich
• pizza
• chips
• moussaka

4 fav books

• Henry James – Washington Square
• Charlotte Bronte – Jane Eyre
• Knulp – Hermann Hesse
• Selma Lagerlof – Niels Holgerson’s adventures

4 places I’ve lived in ?!?

• Planet Metal
• My imaginary world
• Romania, Galati
• ?

4 fav Tv Shows

• Seinfeld
• Gilmore Girls
• 3rd Planet from The Sun
• That 70’s Show

4 fav sites

• http://www.metal-rules.com/
• http://wordpress.com/
• http://ziare.ro
• http://google.com
  

That’s about it! I’m tagging Rachel or not

Ze week-end

This week-end had it’s up’s and down’s. I thoght I was going to be all alone.. well guess again. On saturday I went out with poor whittle mouse (Marius). Wondered around the city, err and finally we got to the PNL headquarters where we played some ping-pong Afterwards.. my brother called to tell that he’s coming home from the Judo Championship in the same night.. and I ough to be home when he arrives because he doesn’t have a key and mom and dad are out of town. Not Faaair. Well I had to come home.. and stay with him.. chat and all. He was really happy because he had won errr something (I just know he’s going to another champshp this month). Mom and dad came home in the same night Again! Not Fair! Today.. been out with Simona & Paula. Met up with some other friends.. went to eat pizza and bla bla talk. Then came home.. I ate falling snow-flakes on my way home.. Still snowing so nice..

I have the lastest KoRn album thx to Doc. Though at first I was kind of sceptic if I should d/l it or not. Glad I did it. So..What else?? Oh yes.. tomorrow it’s school again. Hmm I feel the need for another week of nothingness. I got rid of my emotional problems.. or at least that’s what I think now.. hmm not really sure

[ KoRn - Tearjerker ]

Funny!

I’ve been checking davesdaily.com for some time now. I’ve found the most outrageous things. It’s time to share them to the world
One of the recent things I’ve seen is this. The man didn’t have enough money to buy something to eat. What can you do? It’s grose, still. This one is funny too . LMAO whenever I check the site.

Killing old demons

[Precious and fragile things
Need special handling
My God what have we done to You?

We always try to share
The tenderest of care
Now look what we have put You through...

Things get damaged
Things get broken
I thought we'd manage
But words left unspoken
Left us so brittle
There was so little left to give] Depeche Mode • Precious

I never thought love could get to me.. sometimes you just think you are invincible. This is how I thought. Well I wasn’t, it got to me.. but now it’s going away. Some 8 months since I’ve been crawling inside, trying to escape the sick love I felt. Sick because it made me feel bad. Almost like a worm.. eating my every smile from the inside. It’s never easy to say goodbye to the things you love the most, but sometimes there’s no other way.. than releasing yourself from the things that hurt. It’s self-preservation I think. Anyhows.. it’s kind of stupid to want perfection from a human being. We people just tend to be perfect, though this is just another senseless utopic crap.
Anyhows, enough mushy stuff for the night. Bro` has to wake up and leave the house. Wee, he’s going to Onesti for some fight bs thing. (judo championship). I couldn’t be happier. Having the house only for myself(&friends) for the whole week-end. Yes happy happy joy joy. Nites.

Rawk it baby!

Ok. So it’s a fact. Lake Of Tears are coming to Romania to perform. I’m in ecstasy. Of course I’m going. Hmm hoping at least Well this was a big hit when Flo` told me today.. but then another one came.. Celelalte Cuvinte are playing also. What else to wish for?? Oh yeah see Kurt Cobain :>(that’s on another wishlist though). So it seems I have to choose between going this weekend with Alexandra to Brasov, or see Lake Of Tears play live on the 11th of March. Mom is never happy when I have to leave the house, but this is phuckin LOT. Weee Think I’ll go for the Lake Of Tears part. I can’t erase this big grin stuck on my face. Talking about music and co.. well i laid my eyes on a magazine I received some months ago from some site. It’s EMP magazine .. a catalogue kind of thing and on the back it was written.. To Ms. Elena Gavrila bla bla Russische Foderation. Like WTF?? Since when am I living in the Russian Federation. And wasn’t that like.. ages ago? Eh at least until some 10 years or so. Anyhows.. It’s just so dumbish.. Just to receive the lame magazine I had to write them a special e-mail. Because Romania wasn’t on the list. This is discrimination.. But then again I care fuck since Lake Of Tears are coming. Weee!

Update: Seems Romania is on the list now.. just checked!

Just another post

Last night I slept at my aunt’s place, since she was all alone in the house.. And this morning I had a chance to stay and do absolutely nothing, except watching cartoons with my cousin and eat cereals. It was so nice Just the way it used to be when i was 7-8 years old. Me and my brother.. err playing with toy cars, making roads out of pegs. Watching Scooby-Doo, Richie-Rich, The Flintstones.. Well.. long time ago..

Going today for the damn glasses, have to wear them again.. :-B I so hate glasses. Waiting for dad to come home.. *waiting.. waiting.. Think I’ll go myself..
[:x Luna Amara & Ombladon - Loc Lipsa ]

God Issue

Imagine a world without the devil, without evil things.. a world of constant happiness and joy. There is no such thing.. You’d have a boring, dull even world. You can achieve that happy feeling only after you’ve suffered, you’ve felt pain and increased the value of the good things that wondered in your life. So this means that the Christian God is a half God. Right!?! Since everything in life is both good and evil. We are always trying to hide our bad part.. by not talking about it, covering with good things. What ought this to mean? That a good and realistic God would be a God both Evil and Good. Maybe this sounds stupid or irrelevant. Or maybe we don’t need a God at all. Which I doubt. ( you can’t move the stupid cattle from here to there just thinking that they’ll find the right road eventually.. no, there’s a need for a cowboy ) Anyhow.. either way..This God suckz. :/ Good cannot be without Bad.

Memoirs of a Geisha

[I've been so lazy these last few days. Err almost a week since my last post here. Anyhow.. I'm back in a better shape. Or so i think :wondering:]

I’m stuck on a movie. Not like other American movies.. this one is special.. and filled up with emotion. Of course I’m being subjective. It’s Memoirs of a Geisha and it has awaken my interest for the Japanese culture. Made me want to know more about them. Even the ost’s are great. So peaceful..
Think this has been the best movie that I’ve seen this year.